CLIVE ALLEN
UP FRONT
MY AUTOBIOGRAPHY
CLIVE ALLEN
UP FRONT
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To Lisa,
We’ve grown up together,
you have experienced everything
– the highs and the lows.
You are an incredible wife and
mother to my children.
You are one of the most selfless
people I know and
I wouldn’t have achieved half of
what I did without
your love and support.
This is for you.
Contents
CHAPTER ONE
Changing Lanes
CHAPTER TWO
Born Into It
CHAPTER THREE
Arsenal - Million Pound Mystery
CHAPTER FOUR
Crystal Palace - Growing Up
CHAPTER FIVE
QPR - Road To Wembley
CHAPTER SIX
QPR 2 - Super Hoops
CHAPTER SEVEN
Tottenham - It Was Meant To Be
CHAPTER EIGHT
1986/87 - He Only Scores Goals
CHAPTER NINE
England – Taking Your Chances
CHAPTER TEN
Bordeaux - Les Girondins De Bordeaux
CHAPTER ELEVEN
Manchester City - Heading North
CHAPTER TWELVE
Chelsea - Capital Return
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
West Ham - Into The Premier League
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Millwall - South Of The River
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
Carlisle - Final Stop
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
A Whole New Ball Game
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
Talking Football
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
Tottenham Calling
CHAPTER NINETEEN
Coach Journey
CHAPTER TWENTY
Bottom Three To Top Four
CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
To Dare Is To Do
CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
Harsh Realities
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
Changed Lanes
List of Illustrations
Given my family’s footballing background I found myself immersed in the game from a very young age. Here I am as a boy with Terry Venables, who would later manage me at Crystal Palace, QPR and Tottenham. [NOEL SAVA]
After two successful years at QPR I was signed by Arsenal in 1980, becoming only the fifth player in the history of British football to be signed for over £1 million. Here I am with manager Terry Neill and fellow new signing John Hollins. [GETTY]
Given my age and the money involved, the press had a field day, and all the attention led to one of the more bizarre photoshoots of my career with Page 3 girl Jilly Johnson. [JOHN PAUL, SCOPE FEATURES]
I was all smiles upon joining the Gunners, but it soon turned out to be a strange situation, and I was quickly sold to Crystal Palace in a swap deal with left-back Kenny Sansom having never played a competitive match for the club. I have not spoken to Neill about his sudden change of heart to this day. [GETTY]
At Selhurst Park I continued where I had left off at Loftus Road, and though we finished bottom of the top flight in the 1980/81 season, I finished as the club’s leading goalscorer. [PETER JAY]
My form in a struggling side was enough for Terry Venables to take me back to QPR in 1981. Like everyone else I had to get used to the artificial surface that club chairman Jim Gregory had had installed at Loftus Road. [PA]
Celebrating victory after my goal gave us a 1-0 win in our 1982 FA Cup semi-final against West Brom. Unfortunately, we couldn’t quite go all the way, losing to Tottenham in the final. [GETTY]
QPR finished fifth in the top flight in the 1983/84 season and I top scored in the league with 14 strikes, and my form led to me my making my England debut that summer on a tour of South America. In the first game I came off the bench against Brazil as John Barnes’s iconic solo goal gave us a 2-0 victory in the iconic Maracanã. [GETTY]
I also came off the bench in the 2-0 defeat to Uruguay in Montevideo, and I started in the 0-0 draw to Chile that ended the tour. Though I was unable to get on the scoresheet, the tour was an unbelievable experience both on and off the field, with a visit to Christ the Redeemer another highlight. [GETTY]
At the start of the season it was time for a change, joining another club my dad had been so successful at, Tottenham, in a deal worth £700,000. I hit the ground running and found myself on the scoresheet against QPR in September in a 5-0 win. [PA]
In May 1986, during Ossie Ardiles’s testimonial, I got to line up alongside the great Diego Maradona in a Spurs shirt. Just over six weeks later he was breaking English hearts at the World Cup in Mexico with both his gamesmanship and his genius. [OFFSIDE]
At home with Lisa and our first child, Olly, in February 1987. Spending time with my kids gave me perspective about the game of football – they didn’t care what anyone in the press or the game were saying about me, they just wanted my attention as a father. [OFFSIDE]
Looking over some photos of us in action with my cousins Martin and Paul, who at this stage were playing for QPR and Spurs respectively. [OFFSIDE]
The 1986/87 campaign was my most prolific yet, and I was able to help Spurs the reach FA Cup final. Following our 4-1 win over Watford in the semi-final at Villa Park, a game in which I scored in, me and Chris Waddle are mobbed by supporters. [GETTY]
I was on hand to open the scoring in the final as well against Coventry, but unfortunately the Midlands side fought back to win the game 3-2, denying me an FA Cup triumph I badly craved. [GETTY]
Still, my staggering 49 goals in all competitions meant I received the PFA Players’ Player of the Year and Football Writers’ Player of the Year awards at the end of the season, a small consolation. [GETTY]
Introduced to Pelé by Bryan Robson at the 1987 Football League Centenary Match at Wembley. I was on the Football League XI, and we defeated the Rest of the World XI 3-0. [GETTY]
In January 1988 I travelled to Monte Carlo for the Adidas Golden Shoe Awards. Here I am with Brian McClair, the leading goalscorer from Scotland during the 1986/87 campaign, in front of the jet that took us to the ceremony. [GETTY]
Lining up with my England teammates in what would prove to be my last ever international against Israel in Tel Aviv in February 1987. Unfortunately, I never got on the scoresheet during my five caps. [GETTY]
In March 1988 I made my first move abroad, after being signed by Bordeaux. Here I encountered Eric Cantona before his fame in England, a strong personality despite his young age. He had recently referred to French manager Henri Michel as a ‘bag of shit’ on national television. [OFFSIDE]
I enjoyed my time in France and my goalscoring record was good – a record of more than a goal every other game – but my relationship with eccentric owner Claude Bez was a strange one, and he always seemed keen to chop and change the squad, which would mean I’d spend just one season abroad. [GETTY]
My departure from Bordeaux meant I was back on British shores, and in 1989 I signed for Manchester City. I didn’t always enjoy the easiest of working relationships with Peter Reid, who took over as player-manager in 1990, but here we are in a slightly happier moment. [PA]
I was happier in the environment I found at Stamford Bridge, despite only being at Chelsea for three months. [GETTY]
My move to West Ham in March of 1992 meant I dropped down a division, but thankfully we were promoted back to the Premier League as runners-up in the 1992/93 campaign, with my goal on the final day against Cambridge United sealing the deal. Here are me and some of the other lads promoting the new kit at the start of that campaign. Julian Dicks is at the wheel. [MIRRORPIX]
After short spells with Millwall and Carlisle United, I hung up my footballing boots for good in 1995. I had scored 221 goals in 434 appearances, more than a goal every other game. [PERSONAL]
I found the initial period of retirement a tough one, especially the lack of routine and camaraderie. In 1997, due to my links with Sky, where I was working as a pundit, I was able to temporarily re-enter the sporting arena, representing the London Monarchs in NFL Europe for a season. I had followed the NFL in the 1980s on Channel 4 and though I had absolutely no experience of playing American football before this, my skills with my feet meant I was suitable to play as a specialist kicker. It was just what I needed at the time. [SEAN RYAN]
It wasn’t long before I was back involved in the game I knew well, and after working with the England youth squads, I soon found myself coaching back at Spurs. Here I am with Chris Hughton offering advice to boss Jacques Santini in 2004. [OFFSIDE]
Following Santini’s departure Martin Jol and Juande Ramos both had spells in charge of Spurs, and I was involved in working with both. But it was under Harry Redknapp that Spurs really started to push on. Our team consisted of Harry, Kevin Bond, Joe Jordan and me. [GETTY]
We went on a great journey with Spurs, enjoying some magical moments, including a trip to the Bernabéu to face José Mourinho’s Real Madrid. [PA]
Of all the players I worked with Dimitar Berbatov was right up there in terms of ability, and he was also a consummate professional. He was a genius and I absolutely loved him. [GETTY]
Despite all the water that has passed under the bridge, me and dad were still able to enjoy a fitting send off to White Hart Lane together in 2017. [PA]
With my beautiful family: my sons Olly and Ed; my wife Lisa; my daughters Amelia and Lydia. [PERSONAL]
CHAPTER ONE
Changing Lanes
SUNDAY 14 MAY 2017. TOTTENHAM BEAT MANCHESTER UNITED 2-1 IN THE FINAL GAME PLAYED AT WHITE HART LANE. A FAREWELL CEREMONY TAKES PLACE AT FULL-TIME.
I NEVER THOUGHT I’D LEAD THE LINE AT WHITE HART LANE ONE more time. Around 50 former players and managers had been invited to walk onto the pitch at full-time and there was genuine confusion about how we would be organised.
Several club legends included in the parade had spoken to club officials beforehand, demanding to lead us all out. The organisers had a real dilemma as a result and decided the only fair way to do it was in alphabetical order.
We were welcomed into a joyous atmosphere. Spurs deserved to beat United and Mauricio Pochettino’s side ended the season unbeaten at home in the Premier League. High on a mix of euphoria and nostalgia, the crowd went through a back catalogue of songs as I waited in the tunnel before a video began playing on the big screen.
Sir Kenneth Branagh introduced and narrated a short film depicting some of the greatest days in the stadium’s long history since the first match on the site back in September 1899.
Various images from the 2,533 games played at the Lane were selected, including from the 1960/61 double-winning season, the European Cup Winners’ Cup run of 1963, Diego Maradona’s appearance for Ossie Ardiles’s testimonial and great goals from some of the best: Glenn Hoddle, Paul Gascoigne, Gareth Bale and Harry Kane.
The booming PA took over with a military-style drum-beat provided by the Tottenham Hotspur Marching Band, specially assembled for the day and located just to the left of centre on the pitch.
‘Please. Welcome our former players who graced this pitch at White Hart Lane flanked by a guard of honour from our academy.
‘Our first man scored a record 49 goals in 1987, double footballer of the year… striker CLIVE ALLEN!’
The crowd cheered as I made my way out onto the pitch, waving and smiling to all four corners. What a moment. I’d barely taken ten strides when the PA continued.
‘Talented and industrious, 370 games over eight years, FA Cup winner in 1991, midfielder… PAUL ALLEN!’
I reached the centre as my cousin Paul took his applause and walked to the other side of a central plinth from which world-renowned tenor Wynne Evans would later sing.
‘The scorer of the first goal in that legendary double season of 1961, striker, LES ALLEN!’
With a crutch in his right arm, Dad made his way across the grass as the roll-call continued. Darren Anderton, Steve Archibald and Ossie Ardiles came next.
Ossie walked across the pitch and Dad took his place alongside me. The club’s greats continued to file out and as 30,000 fans sang about Ledley King having one knee yet being better than John Terry, the rain began to fall and umbrellas were passed along the line to those of us already in the middle. Dad held his own umbrella, as did I. The weather did nothing to dampen the spirits, although it tried.
The names kept coming as the rain got heavier: Teddy Sheringham, Ricky Villa, Chris Waddle.
‘Ladies and gentlemen, the great players who graced this pitch thousands of times between them. The Kings of White Hart Lane!’
The emotion of standing next to my Dad and my cousin while being described in those terms overwhelmed me. I looked across at Paul. He smiled back. I looked at Dad. Nothing.
CHAPTER TWO
Born Into It
‘IT’S BETTER TO BE A HAS-BEEN THAN A NEVER-WAS.’ THIS WAS MY Dad’s mantra from as young as I can remember.
I was six years old when I realised he was famous in football. He played in the Queens Park Rangers side which beat West Brom to win the 1967 League Cup Final and it was the first event I can remember attending as a family.
Prior to that, he was part of one of the most iconic teams in Tottenham’s history and people stopped him anywhere inside a mile of White Hart Lane.
Dad scored 27 goals in Spurs’s Double-winning season of 1960/61 and played alongside the legendary Jimmy Greaves for a short while before moving to QPR in 1965.
He was an old-fashioned inside-forward, playing off the main striker. I remember he had a good touch with excellent awareness of what was going on around him. He wasn’t the quickest but he had a fine goalscoring record, 61 in 137 appearances, made all the more impressive by not operating as an out-and-out striker.
In subsequent years, I have talked to some of the old boys I work with at Tottenham on matchdays about him. John Pratt, a former midfielder who made over 400 appearances for the club before later returning as a coach and then assistant manager, told me Bill Nicholson described Dad as his most dangerous player in the Double team.
For the great man to say that about my Dad in one of the best teams in Tottenham’s history is quite an accolade.
Greaves ultimately replaced Dad in the starting line-up, prompting a move to QPR, where he ended his playing career. He also briefly managed at Loftus Road during the 1969/70 season. It seemed across London I couldn’t go anywhere as a kid without anyone telling me what a great player he was.
Of course, I was proud of that. Everyone liked him and he had a powerful, consuming influence over me, particularly in my formative years.
The daily guidance of a top sportsman helped me understand the commitment and focus required to make it as a professional.
But I slowly became aware of the Allen family tree’s reach, spreading much wider across football. My uncle Dennis played for Charlton before spending almost a decade at Reading. Everybody loved Uncle Den. He always let us kids – my Dad had six siblings who all had children of their own, so family gatherings were quite something – do whatever the respective parents said we couldn’t do.
When I was 11 years old, I watched him play for Belgian side Oostende at Colchester in a pre-season game towards the end of his career. A family group of about 20 went to support him but he didn’t need it. Den was a rugged centre-half, a good footballer but very tough. He was naughty. I would have hated playing against him.
There were two guys sat on a wall in front of us, shouting abuse at him, thinking he was Belgian and therefore wouldn’t understand what they were saying. Den kept smiling in their direction and early in the game he launched into a tackle right in front of them, completely wiping out Colchester’s right-winger.
These two lads were up in arms and he just winked at them. He made a similar tackle later on which drove them madder still. We all stood up in support but Den focused on these two lads, baying for the referee to send him off. He went over to the touchline and right in front of them, turned around and pulled his shorts down.
The women in the Allen clan all had their hands over their eyes in disbelief but I thought it was brilliant. All the boys did. He was our hero after that.
Football clubs can be strange places, particularly at youth level. You are introduced to more people than you can ever remember. A constant need to prove your ability can trigger inhibitions which become hard to shake. Every now and again, you might catch a glimpse of a first-team player to set your heart racing in awe and admiration.
None of that applied to me. I’d been fortunate enough to be immersed in club culture from a very young age. I once went to a match at Loftus Road in a QPR kit given to me as a Christmas present before knocking a ball around with family friend Terry Venables and Rodney Marsh prior to kick-off. I was lucky.
I got the right advice in key moments. Aged 11, I was playing for Gaynes School Under-12s in Hornchurch against Dury Falls. Dury’s coach was Dave Spurdle, who doubled up as selector for the District side and while I was just looking forward to playing, Dad sat with me a few days before the game to stress its importance.
‘This is your chance,’ he said, ‘and I know how you can guarantee yourself a place in the District side. Score six goals.’
It might sound like undue pressure to put on someone so young but it sharpened my focus. We won 8-0, I scored the six goals ordered and was selected for the District side.
An obsession with goals is something you have in your DNA. It is a measure by which you can determine individual development and that is a rare thing in team sport. The way I was brought up, it wasn’t about the one you scored but the next one. Harry Kane has got it. Having worked with him during my time as a coach at Spurs, I know that first-hand. I could never have foreseen Harry would have the career he has today but you could always see the fundamental attributes that could make him a goalscorer.
Practice makes perfect. You have to drill yourself to know what type of finish you are attempting the split-second a chance comes your way. How can you be most efficient in scoring? Power, precision, contact on the ball. I played in the street kicking the ball against the kerb, striking it into a small goal for hours and hours. I’d smash it over the fence, run off through the bushes to get it, bring it back and start again.
I was playing competitive football aged six – for an Under-10s side – and wanted to be out there every moment I could. Over time, you become confident that you can strike the ball properly with either foot from different angles or at different speeds. In my peak years, this was probably my best quality. Nowadays I struggle to hit a golf ball properly and that doesn’t even move. I suppose it is a lot smaller.
I very rarely got nervous, even when I was young. My mindset was: ‘This is where you want to be, this is what you want to do for a living. Go and make it happen.’
It helped me when I was older. Old Trafford, Highbury or Wembley – millions of people wanted to be in my shoes but I was there and had put the hours in to make it count. In high-profile situations, amateurs worry about what can go wrong but professionals focus on the chance to succeed.
I could put myself to sleep easily. If we were an hour away from the ground I could sit on the bus and nod off. In a way, it was like meditation and became a routine over time. I still can do that today.
Because you get labelled a goalscorer, you are expected to score in every game. I could come off scoring in a 4-1 defeat and although I hated losing, there was something I could take from it. It wasn’t satisfaction but I could process the defeat internally by telling myself I’d done what I was supposed to do, once at least.
There was probably some jealousy towards me growing up with people thinking I was only progressing due to my Dad, but it made me more determined to make it on my own terms. To be my own man.
As I began progressing through my teenage years, I became aware of how unique it was to be part of an extended football family. Only my older brother Andrew decided to pursue another passion in his life: cars. He was a good all-round sportsman in his youth and got a job working in design at Ford upon leaving school.
When representing District or County teams, I’d hear people say ‘Oh, he’s an Allen’ or ‘His Dad was a player’. Carrying the family name became something to overcome. My cousins Paul and Martin had the same hurdle.
Like my younger brother Bradley, Paul and Martin were always going to be players. There was never any doubt about it. Harry Redknapp has said to me many times that being brought up in the Allen family environment was like being born with the skills and mentality to make it as a professional footballer.
Paul was so industrious and competitive, an incredible athlete from a young age. People have told me how in his first training session at West Ham, Billy Bonds crushed him in a tackle, picked him up and said: ‘You’ll be alright for me, son.’
Paul would dust himself down and go again. He was fearless in the way he approached the game. Martin had a similar mentality. If anything, he thought he was a better player than he was but that’s not a bad thing. You need that inner confidence in difficult moments, especially when dealing with expectation created by the name on the back of your shirt.
Bradley perhaps had an impossible task on his hands in that regard, following Dad and me. My son Olly and Martin’s son Charlie were the same. Bradley had some great attributes but maybe his lack of physicality stopped him from reaching the very top, although he went on to play in the Premier League for QPR, once scoring a hat-trick against Everton.
We all knew the pros and cons of being an Allen, but each of us wanted to follow our own path. We were all on a mission and had to be blinkered, all while recognising and respecting the fact that we were part of a highly unusual football family.
Occasionally I had to bite my tongue. My mates would talk about famous players they’d seen on television or read about in newspapers when I knew what they were like in real life. Talk didn’t interest me too much anyway, I was just focused on trying to make it.
I progressed from the District side to England schoolboys, which gave me early exposure to big stadia like Wembley and Celtic Park and football icons such as Brian Clough, who had been brought into the England set up by Ron Greenwood.
During a 1978 tournament in Las Palmas when I was 17, I got one of his typically harsh lessons. I was wearing moulded soled boots during a game and had fallen over a few times in the first half. ‘Put on some boots with studs,’ he said, ‘and if you fall over again, I’m taking you off.’ I didn’t dare fall over after that. He was often unorthodox – holding one pre-match team-talk out there in the blazing midday sun – sometimes brutal, but almost always right.
The game that stands out from my early years, though, was aged 14 for London Schools against Bristol Schools at White Hart Lane in October 1975. Bristol had turned up with the same colour shirts as us so we had to borrow a Tottenham kit. Suddenly I was wearing a Spurs shirt and playing as a centre-forward at the Lane. Against a Bristol team containing a young Gary Mabbutt I scored a hat-trick in a 5-0 win.
You can see why, looking back now, it felt like my destiny to play for Tottenham. I’d progressed well enough to receive offers from four clubs when considering whether or not to turn professional aged 16.
My maths teacher at Gaynes wanted me to stay on and take A-levels. He argued if I was good enough now to play football professionally the same would be true in two years and I could pursue it with academic qualifications, which may prove useful at some point.
However, I was adamant I wanted to leave and take up an apprenticeship. But where? Tottenham, Ipswich, Manchester City and Queens Park Rangers were my options. I didn’t really support a team. I loved football but I couldn’t nail my colours to the mast. I don’t really know why. Perhaps that’s one of the reasons I ended up moving around so much.
Because of my father’s connection with Spurs, they were close to my heart, but I just didn’t feel I had a chance of playing at Tottenham given the size of the club and likely competition for places. I also didn’t want to leave home, which ruled out moving to Suffolk or Manchester. Dad had left QPR by the time I had the chance to sign for them but he was still speaking to various clubs on my behalf. It was like having my own agent.
He’d left Swindon Town after two years as manager and had the time to help me make the right decision.
However, West Ham were one club that wouldn’t contact my Dad about me. They had rejected him as a 15-year-old and he subsequently went to Chelsea to start his career.
Yet they did approach his brother, Ron, about Paul, who is a year younger than me. Clearly, some issues remained between Dad and West Ham but that’s football. In any case, I don’t think I would have joined the Hammers because even if they had made an offer, my Dad would have advised against taking it.
QPR had finished runners-up in the First Division in 1975/76 and many of their players were over 30 years old. I was training at QPR and had those experiences with Terry Venables and Rodney Marsh as a youngster. I’ll always have a soft spot for them.
I believed I’d have more of a chance to break through there and my Dad agreed. After I signed Terry told me about what a bright future I could have.
I started in the youth team and soon graduated to the reserves, but the first team had dipped to the extent that by early 1979 – just six months after I had left school – I was beginning to train regularly with the first team.
Had I stayed in school and left aged 18, it would have been so much harder to pursue a football career. I always believed I was good enough if I got the chance so I wanted it as soon as possible. I had tunnel vision to becoming a footballer – the thought of doing something else never entered my head – and fortunately it happened.
There’s a different process in place now whereby young players have a better opportunity to study if they are that way inclined. It comes down to the individual. It is hard to do because you have to be 100 percent focused to make it as a player.
I remember going to day release college once, on a Thursday. I think it was an accountancy course but all I really remember was being completely bored. I understood the importance of it but I didn’t want to be there. I never went back because I couldn’t afford to miss Thursdays at QPR – that was when they prepared teams for Saturday matches.
Whether I was playing for the youth team that weekend or possibly looking to be involved in the first team, I had to be there for two reasons: one, to be training with the group and, two, to make an impression on those making the decisions in whatever team I was aiming for.
I certainly wasn’t given any special favours because of my Dad. In fact, I assumed I’d have to work twice as hard for any sort of recognition and spent hours practising my finishing with coach Theo Foley.
Theo wouldn’t call me Clive. He preferred ‘Son of Les’, a phrase he used in my presence for years after I signed.
Dad took more of a backseat at this point, but we’d already endured some difficult times. Our relationship was particularly strained when I was around 13 to 15 years old, before I went to QPR as an apprentice.
Dad treated me like a young professional and sometimes I came home in tears. My Mum, Pat, would always ask me what was wrong and her sympathetic, calming influence was a counter-balance to my Dad’s relentless cajoling. I confided in her.
‘This is the way he is,’ she’d say. ‘He is not being hard on you – he wants only the best for you.’
‘But he’s never satisfied. I never hear anything but criticism or where I’ve fallen short.’
Round and round the conversation would go, neither of us shifting from our respective points of view. A hug would usually bring it to a close.
Signing professional terms is a huge moment in anyone’s life but I hadn’t achieved a level he was happy with.
After joining QPR, he told me: ‘Right, it is now down to you.’ He still watched my games though, and if he thought I hadn’t played well, he wouldn’t have to say anything. I knew. One look would say a thousand words.
On the one hand, this gave me the drive some parents would suggest a child needs to succeed. But placing these demands on a teenager blurs the lines in a father-and-child relationship. Childhood should be about freedom of expression but this is also a period in a young player’s potential career which demands discipline and sacrifice. Applying the requisite pressure without alienation or stifling natural growth is extremely tricky.
I had an insight into what was needed to make it at the top level and without it I might not have achieved anything. Standards were instilled in me at a fundamental level. I had to score the most goals in a training session. I had to be the quickest in the sprints. In the back of my mind, my Dad’s words drove me on: unless you push yourself every minute of every day, you will fail.
The senior players also left me under no illusions about what was required, even if the first team was struggling at the time. I played for the reserves in a practice game against the first team and inside the first five minutes, David Webb absolutely nailed me with a tackle from behind that left me in a heap on the ground.
Just like Paul’s experience with Billy at West Ham, the message was clear: there are no favours here. I swept the dressing rooms, picked up their kit and took those physical lessons they gave me because those are tests you had to pass to progress.
I knew the rough treatment was coming because Dad had prepared me for it. ‘Don’t answer the pros back,’ he’d say. ‘Don’t take liberties, they are challenging you to see if you can handle it.’ It was just part and parcel of a young player’s education and nothing specific to me at all. Those who didn’t cope didn’t progress.
I made a good impression and broke into the first team towards the end of the 1978/79 campaign. My simple target, which applied throughout my career, was to average one goal every two games. At the top level, this was the benchmark for a consistent goalscorer.
I was introduced slowly with a series of substitute appearances, one of which produced my first senior goal in a 3-1 defeat at Aston Villa in March 1979, while in another I found myself facing the fearsome Norman Hunter at centre-half as we lost at Bristol City. I took a few heavy challenges that day.
When I came on against Chelsea, Ray Wilkins whispered into my ear ‘good luck son, many more appearances I’m sure,’ a nice touch that stuck with me.
John Hollins was great in helping me to settle in to the first team. Stan Bowles was a wonderful player to play with, one of the best passers of the ball and his creativity was one of my main routes to goal.
My full debut came in April against Coventry. The pitch was dreadful – almost as much of a distraction as the visitors’ chocolate brown away kit – and it felt just like another game. I was nervous but it was where I wanted to be. We were 1-0 down but I managed to equalise from just outside the box and went on to score a hat-trick – a moment which announced my arrival as a QPR player.
Collectively, however, it was only a brief respite from a truly dismal end to the season – the solitary victory from our final 12 league games, form which meant relegation to the Second Division.
Tommy Docherty replaced Steve Burtenshaw as manager and turned to youth, chiefly by partnering me with Paul Goddard in attack.
That was great for both of us because there wasn’t just one youngster having to go in and prove themselves. We may have been a young partnership but we’d played together for a while from the youth team to the reserves and developed a good understanding which helped us thrive.
I scored 30 goals in the 1979/80 season as we finished fifth in the Second Division. I devoured every opportunity I was given to play. This was what I did, what I wanted to do throughout my career: score goals. My Dad had instilled in me the need to seize the moment – deliver your best and move on to the next. I got into a rhythm which I suppose many young players aspire to, but I expected it.
However, throughout this period there was never a moment where I felt like I’d made it. I was constantly proving myself. My form was attracting attention from some of the biggest clubs in England but I was never bothered about it. You can’t get distracted.
It was easier back then, of course, with much less media scrutiny. Many players get sidetracked with all the trappings of fame nowadays. It takes an incredibly strong mentality to stay dedicated, shun the immediate gratification a modicum of success can bring and keep that drive to apply yourself on a daily basis in order to improve.
Across the 1978/79 and 1979/80 seasons, I scored 34 goals in 55 games in the Football League, FA Cup and League Cup.
Yet, regardless of how many goals I scored in a game, Dad would remind me of the wasted chances.
Tottenham legend Bill Nicholson once collared him in the dressing room as he relaxed after scoring five goals in an FA Cup game against Crewe.
‘I don’t know why you are looking so happy,’ he said. ‘What about the ones you missed?’
The Nicholson influence was there before I was old enough to recognise it. Dad would defend me in public, particularly with the press, but in private it was different.
It has always been complicated. I’m grateful for his guidance but pained by his parenting. Whenever I pushed back or felt I was winning a particular argument, the same line would halt me in my tracks.
‘It’s better to be a has-been than a never-was.’
CHAPTER THREE
Arsenal – Million Pound Mystery
SIXTY-TWO DAYS AFTER ARSENAL MADE ME FOOTBALL’S FIRST million-pound teenager on 12 June 1980, I was sold to Crystal Palace without playing a competitive game.
You couldn’t have made it up. The Gunners had played 70 matches in the 1979/80 campaign – a remarkable effort but one which ended in agonising disappointment by losing the Cup Winners’ Cup Final to Valencia on penalties and the FA Cup Final to West Ham.
Those two cup runs had generated revenue the club wanted to reinvest in the squad to give them that final nudge towards winning silverware. They were looking for a statement signing.
It all began with a phone call shortly after the end of the season. Queens Park Rangers manager Tommy Docherty told me over the phone that the club had agreed a £1.25million fee to sell me to Arsenal.
‘You are going to a great club,’ he said. ‘I have [manager] Terry Neill and [coach] Don Howe in the office with me. I would like you to speak to them.’
Terry chimed in: ‘It has all been agreed and I would like to meet you down at Highbury.’
I was about to go on holiday to Corfu with my girlfriend Lisa, yet 24 hours after Tommy’s call I was marvelling at Highbury’s marble halls and the impressive bust of legendary manager Herbert Chapman with my Dad and Arsenal chief executive Ken Friar.
The trophy cabinet was a sight to behold, reinforcing the size of the club and opportunity before me.
We then sat down to discuss terms and I asked to think about the offer overnight. In truth, there was no real decision to make. QPR wanted the money and the step up for me was something every teenager would have wanted.
The next day, I signed a four-year deal with Arsenal and the newspapers turned up for interviews.
‘We don’t do things lightly here,’ Terry told reporters. ‘Our supporters deserve the best and that is what I believe we have given them by buying Clive.’
As I got in the car to go home, my Dad was unusually quiet. I didn’t know at the time but years later I learned Bill Nicholson had watched me play on several occasions during the 1979/80 campaign.
He’d spoken to Dad about me, privately. All Dad said to me during that period was: ‘Remember, wherever you play, you never know who is watching.’
It was yet another measure of instilling high standards in my conduct at all times, but I also believe he thought Spurs were going to come in and make an offer for me before Arsenal did. A Canadian side that played in the North American Soccer League, Vancouver Whitecaps, had reportedly made a seven-figure bid but Tottenham never came calling.
Maybe they weren’t convinced about paying so much for someone so young. It was a huge deal for Arsenal – their previous transfer record was just £440,000 for England international Brian Talbot. It was a huge deal in the game too.
Transfers were getting bigger but I was still only the fifth player in history to change clubs for more than £1m after Trevor Francis became the first 16 months earlier. Trevor, Andy Gray, Steve Daley and Kevin Reeves had all achieved much more in the game than I had but Arsenal were clearly banking on me realising the potential I’d shown to that point.
The press had a field day, with some claiming the game had gone mad. My media duties included a bizarre photoshoot with Page 3 model Jilly Johnson, who had her arms wrapped around me wearing only a swimsuit and high heels, while I stood there in my full Arsenal kit.
Regardless of the hype and expectation that came with the transfer fee, I couldn’t wait to get started. I reported back in the middle of July to Arsenal’s London Colney training ground. Pat Jennings, Sammy Nelson, Pat Rice, Alan Sunderland and Frank Stapleton all introduced themselves and made me feel welcome. Liam Brady was about to move to Italy but he also made a point of saying hello.
John Hollins was a friendly face from our Rangers days together. Pre-season was tough but productive under Don and before too long we left to go on tour.
From the first game, things didn’t feel right. Arsenal had founded their success on a 4-4-2 system with Sunderland and Stapleton up front but I was asked to play wide-right in a 4-3-3 shape against Glasgow Rangers in our first pre-season friendly.
It wasn’t a role I knew too much about, having played as a central striker under Tommy at Rangers without too many defensive responsibilities.
Playing on the wing was totally different. To be honest, I was still trying to hone my skills as a centre-forward and so to go to Arsenal and to be told I was playing wide-right was a big ask.
I was taken off at half-time and we lost 2-0. Dad told me: ‘It doesn’t matter where you play, you have still got to perform.’ But I was surprised by the whole thought process from Terry and Don.
Next up was Sir Alex Ferguson’s Aberdeen. We lost 2-1 and I barely got a shot at goal. I was thinking about that lack of goalscoring opportunities on the journey back from Scotland but, to my surprise, Don was more interested in discussing how I’d sometimes not tracked the opposing full-back, allowing him a free run down our right flank.
Arsenal had paid all this money for me because of my ability as a striker and yet here Don was coaching me defending. It made no sense.
A few days later we went to Belgrade for a four-team tournament comprising local sides Red Star and Partizan along with Vasco da Gama of Brazil.
I played the first 50 minutes against Vasco in the same wide role before being substituted.
Don was withering. ‘I’m taking you off so you can sit down and watch how we do it,’ he said.
I sat out the next game altogether for the same reason. It clearly wasn’t ideal pre-season preparation, but the newspaper headlines we landed to when arriving back to London that Sunday knocked me for six.
Splashed across the back pages was the suggestion I was about to be sold to Crystal Palace in a swap deal for Kenny Sansom. We all know the papers don’t get everything right so I shrugged it off as best I could and reported for training at Colney the next day. In all honesty, I didn’t think it was genuine but I wasn’t angry about anything being leaked to the press. I was programmed to interpret it as merely something else I had to deal with.
I was getting changed when Don came over and told me not to bother. Alarm bells immediately went off in my head.
‘Terry wants to see you at Highbury,’ he said, before turning his back on me and heading out with the rest of the boys. I stood there as the noise of their pre-training chat gradually disappeared, replaced by silence.
My mind began racing on the car journey. Why didn’t Terry just tell me the stories were nonsense at the training ground? After all, the start of the season was less than a week away and every session was vital in order to hit the ground running.
I called my Dad on the way. He told me just to hear Terry out so I headed straight to his office upon arrival, passing through the marble halls I’d admired just a few weeks earlier.
‘Sit down, Clive,’ said Terry. ‘Look, this isn’t the way I wanted it to come out but those swap stories about you and Kenny… there’s something in it.’
I was speechless.
‘After looking at the team in pre-season, Sammy Nelson’s knee injury and the goals we’ve conceded, we feel we need a left-back and Kenny is our preferred choice.’
The man who had sold Arsenal to me as a club where I could make my name was now telling me, in his words, I was ‘surplus to requirements’.
How could that be? Even if they needed another defender, how could Alan and Frank suddenly cope with the goalscoring burden on their own given they felt compelled to spend so much on me in order to help?
I think my response surprised Terry. Maybe it even surprised me. I suppose I had nothing to compare it to as a 19-year-old. In that moment, I realised my Dad had prepared me well to remain professional.
‘But I don’t want to leave,’ I said. ‘I have signed a contract to play for Arsenal and that’s what I want to do. It wasn’t that long ago you were telling me I was an important part of the future of the club. Now I’m not needed.’
There had clearly already been dialogue between Arsenal and Crystal Palace about a transfer, maybe even between Terry Neill and Terry Venables directly.
‘Well, if you stay,’ said Terry, ‘you won’t play in the first game of the season at West Bromwich Albion on Saturday.’
He was trying to push me to join Palace.
‘Fair enough,’ I said. ‘That’s fine by me. If, as manager, you give me permission to speak to Terry Venables, I will. But as far as I’m concerned, I’m an Arsenal player and I want it to stay that way. But sooner or later, if I decide to stay after speaking to Terry, you will have to play me in the first team. It is your head that will be on the block if you have paid all that money for someone to play them in the reserves.’
There was surely no way he could argue with that. Without disagreeing, Terry stood firm and told me to speak to Venables.
The next day I met Terry at a hotel in west London.
‘What’s the matter with you?’ Terry asked, beaming from ear to ear as he entered the room. He’d known me from such a young age that it didn’t take much for him to realise something was up.
‘Why aren’t you smiling?’
I explained my head was still spinning from the night before.
‘I don’t have to sell Crystal Palace to you,’ he continued. ‘You either want to play for me or you can stay at Arsenal. It’s up to you.’
‘Where are you going to play me?’ I asked.
‘Down the middle, up front,’ he replied.
That was just about all I needed to hear, but I asked for the night to mull it over. I was staying with my girlfriend Lisa to hide from the press because speculation was rife. Would I be considered a failure if I left Arsenal without playing a game? Would my reputation be damaged? What was really going on here?
My future at Arsenal was pretty bleak, and here was a manager who knew me, understood me and was offering to play me in my preferred position. Terry certainly made me feel wanted.
I met him again at a London hotel and signed for Crystal Palace before going to the training ground at Mitcham to meet my new teammates.
Goalkeeper Paul Barron was also with me, having joined as part of the deal, and one look at the playing staff filled me with optimism: Vince Hilaire, Jerry Murphy, Billy Gilbert, Peter Nicholas – these were young players dubbed ‘the Team of the Eighties’ after surpassing all expectations in their first season back in the First Division.
I signed on the Wednesday and started against defending champions Liverpool in the first game of the season that weekend.
And just like that, Arsenal was consigned to history. They invested a lot of money in buying me as a young talent and I would have liked the opportunity to prove them right. I don’t regret signing for them but, in a way, perhaps I’ve held it against Arsenal ever since.
There were so many conspiracy theories doing the rounds at the time. One claimed QPR chairman Jim Gregory wouldn’t sell to Terry in the first place so I was parked at Arsenal to eventually get me to Palace.
That made no sense. I could have been injured in pre-season and transfers of that size could be complicated enough between two clubs without introducing a third.
Another theory suggested Palace were short of cash and the only way they could do any business was to trade their prized asset, Kenny Sansom, with a team that wanted him and his sudden availability triggered a late change of heart at Arsenal.
But, again, I could have been injured at any point and I could always have flat out refused to move. Furthermore, couldn’t Kenny and I play in the same team? If they wanted him that badly, I’m sure Arsenal could have found the money.
I haven’t spoken to Terry Neill since and I won’t because nobody can change what happened.
Within two months, he had gone from taking me around the club – in front of a television crew – telling me what a future I had, to deeming me ‘surplus to requirements’. You have to question that kind of judgement.
Terry later claimed in a 1985 book entitled Revelations of a Football Manager that the forward combination of Alan, Frank and me ‘didn’t look right’.
‘Don and I realised there would be a lot of criticism if we unloaded Allen to Palace before he had played a single league game for Arsenal but we had to be positive and make a judgement in the best interests of the club,’ he said.
But he must have had an idea of how the three of us could play together? If you are planning to bring in a striker, you think about whether he would play as part of a three or work as a two with one particular player.
Nobody told me during the negotiations that I would play on the right. I thought I would be coming in to compete for one of the two central striker positions in place of Alan or Frank. But we never played two strikers in the games we played so they must have had a pre-existing plan to change things. In which case, how can you reach the definitive conclusion it won’t work after a few warm-up games?
I guess I just wasn’t the player they thought they were acquiring, which I find very difficult to understand because they’d obviously watched my games beforehand. To have an idea that it wasn’t going to work from a few pre-season games is just bizarre. I don’t accept what Terry wrote as being the legitimate reason.
He also refuted the idea he’d bought me ‘as a puppet’ because QPR and Palace wouldn’t do business and I’d like to believe at least that much was true.
Whatever really happened, the whole situation was bizarre but completely out of my control. I suppose I was lucky in one sense that this all happened back then before the explosion in modern media. There was a lot of press interest but if something similar happened today, there would be an almighty 24-hour media storm going on for days and days.
At the time, I just wanted to get my career going. If it wasn’t Arsenal, it would be somewhere else.
Looking at the positives, one long-term benefit was that I never felt fearful of moving clubs, entering another senior dressing room or changing my environment. For all I later achieved with Tottenham, I feel my experience at Arsenal sparked the making of me as a man.
Another consolation was that I received two significant signing-on fees in one summer for my troubles.